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I feel like hugging 돼지 - 토끼 naoz ):
Or someone/something, anything.
I just need a hug, I’m so frustrated and I hate feeling like this at this time of the year, I can’t rant about it to anybody because I just don’t want to rant and get into another hugeass fight like I did earlier this year. My best friend is away, JS' phone is screwed up, Jiaqi SP is in Bali, Weiyu’s got enough to worry about.
I feel like crying, all this frustration is killing me, over what?
I’m so frustrated I just feel like crying everything out, but I can’t. No tears would come, and it’s getting worse day by day, I feel so annoyed and pissed of at everyone and everything, most especially my family. They’ve done nothing wrong, but I just feel so pissed off. I feel like screaming “F—” out loud, I’m screaming in my head, in my dreams, but no one hears me.
If that isn’t enough, my heart feels two completely different things at the same time. I want to be alone, yet I need someone to be there for me, to listen, to hug me, to tell me everything’s going to be okay. Yet, I feel if I see anyone right now I’ll just burst into tears.
I hate this. I hate feeling frustrated and being unable to cry. I hate it.
Completely.
I just need a hug, I really need one.
I feel like hugging 돼지 - 토끼 naoz ):
Or someone/something, anything.
I just need a hug, I’m so frustrated and I hate feeling like this at this time of the year, I can’t rant about it to anybody because I just don’t want to rant and get into another hugeass fight like I did earlier this year. My best friend is away, JS' phone is screwed up, Jiaqi SP is in Bali, Weiyu’s got enough to worry about.
I feel like crying, all this frustration is killing me, over what?
1. ATCL - It’s already next Friday, and I’m feeling really really scared because this is like…a major thing for me. I don’t care if Mac says I’m improving, I’m not good enough, I’ve been practicing 4 hours a day, but I still feel like something’s missing, and I don’t know what is.
2. I’m sick - Or falling sick, anyway. Been sneezing and coughing for the past few days.
3. I’m still being stalked by someone I completely dislike - And I have no idea how to shake him off without sounding completely rude/like a bitch. I feel like I have to be nice to him, but it’s seriously annoying the hell out of me, I don’t feel as free in church as I used to feel.
4. Imsomnia - I can’t sleep, thanks to my hacking coughs that keep me up half the night, and dreams. I hate good dreams that seem so real, and then I have to be woken up and jolted back into reality.
5. Everything else, Sec 4 year arriving, rotting pile of holiday homework which I’m only 1/3 through - And I’ve got hardly any time left.
I’m so frustrated I just feel like crying everything out, but I can’t. No tears would come, and it’s getting worse day by day, I feel so annoyed and pissed of at everyone and everything, most especially my family. They’ve done nothing wrong, but I just feel so pissed off. I feel like screaming “F—” out loud, I’m screaming in my head, in my dreams, but no one hears me.
If that isn’t enough, my heart feels two completely different things at the same time. I want to be alone, yet I need someone to be there for me, to listen, to hug me, to tell me everything’s going to be okay. Yet, I feel if I see anyone right now I’ll just burst into tears.
I hate this. I hate feeling frustrated and being unable to cry. I hate it.
Completely.
I just need a hug, I really need one.